wanderlust

Hip Hip HURRAY!

Well, good news! We are all final year students now! I’m so pleased with my results this semester, WE are all pleased in fact. Now I can enjoy my holidays in peace.!!!! Two more semester till I grad, can’t be any happier. Of course I am only taking into account the No study part but I know when school ends, then looking for a job would be the death of… Me.

BUT ANYWAY, I cant wait for my Bali getaway. YES. Bali again for the third time. I must say I wouldnt get sick of that place, life there is just.. Relaxing. And of course my upcoming BKK trip after Bali hehehehehehehe. 3 countries in a year is extremely taxing financially. Taiwan, Bali, Bkk. But i need all those to reward myself from all the studying.

Finally got to meet Mel and Kaz and they crack me up. I really love how I can call them randomly still ad start giggling over the phone like a maniac. You girls are priceless gemssss.

Gg for a job interview tomorrow and I hope everything goes fine!

Till thennn. Xx

Rants.

This space have evolved into such a boring place. The last time I kept a diary/blog whatever you call it, I bothered to read my archives. Right now when I punch in my url, and then attempt to look at my archives, I get bored. Whatever happened to “keeping this for memory sake”?

I know someday I might just regret not putting in enough effort just to note down the littlest detail of my day, or my life. Like.. What if I have amnesia some day and I only get to know what I posted, PLUS, considering the fact that almost 80% of my post are depressing, I would be quick to conclude that I lead a depressing life when in actual fact I am not. OR.. Whatever..

I was just confessing to Jan today about how I feel about results taking day, which is happening tomorrow. You know, I have been surpressing it for the longest time. Because I know it is very Annoying for me to constantly tell people how worried I am yada yada. If I have a friend like me, he/she would annoy the fuck out of me. I know I am annoying. But I am really worried. I try not to rant it out here but I decided I would today.

I have this anxiety problem when it comes to results ever since I started Uni. I didnt use to be SO bloody worried and no I dont know what triggered this. Somedays I think I could be crazy and Then i try to console myself by thinking that I am pressurizing myself. Then another me would start lashing out ALL negative thoughts and that irks me it makes me wanna cry soooooooooo very bitterly.

I’m not going on anymore else I’d be deemed crazy.

Sigh hugs anybody?

Xx

I am not smart.

I’m here lying on my bed. Having all sorts of thoughts in my head.

I don’t know where to start. But I am so worried.

Jan. Feb. Mar. Apr. May.

School started, and then the same old routine happens. Assignments test exams all the way till May.

Happy anniversary to Jan and me on the 1st April! Time flies.. But it didnt feel like a year. Felt more like years, like I’ve known him all my life. We have been through our fair share of ups and downs.. Being able to settle our arguments amicably, and being able to be my everything, almost literally, tops it all. He plants a permanent happiness on my face.

And also.. Haven’t achieved much despite being almost 5 months into 2012.. Trying so hard to save as much money as I can so my dream can come true. Quite pathetic because my only source of income is through tutoring SIGH.

And so even though my exams have ended.. I haven’t got to meet any of my friends other than Lester and Benny.

I think I’ve evolved into such a lazy bum. I should get out soon.

And speaking of soon, I’m getting my results next Thursday. Have been occupying my brain with everything urelated to results ever since the exams ended… But because I am such a WORRY WART. I’ve been thinking about it as the doomsday is getting nearer and nearer. I wish I had an unworried brain.

And oooh.. I have bright red hair now!

Xoxo

So both my closest girlfriends are not in town. It hits me every now and then that I miss them 3 so fucking much, it makes me so sad.

I love all of you.

Xx

Mel

Mel where are you? I miss you. Try calling me again soon.

I miss you.

X

Not good.

I don’t feel too good recently.
Can’t find the exact reason why.
It must be the dream that drained me out.
It must be the schoolwork.
Must be the late nights.
Or waking up in half-fucked hours.

I don’t know.

I can’t feel my usual self.
Its like I just want to curl up
Find a comfortable spot
And just laze with him.

No conversations.
Just the sound from the TV.
Falling asleep amidst.

That could be the perfect remedy.

X.