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When you don’t get enough sleep, what happens is that nothing feels right and you just want to whine till hopefully, things gets your way. But nah. It doesnt really work that way. When your day starts at the wrong note, Suck. It. Up. Bad things escalates on a bad day. Tomorrow will be a better day. With every single ounce of positivity, Xx

Feb 27th

Absence makes the heart....

I’m so used to Jan staying over at my place I hate it when he’s not here now. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH JANNY JAN JAN.

Feb 23rd

"Hey Mdm, here's a parcel for you"

Secret gift box from a special someone. I LOVE UNWRAPPING. ITS LIKE UNVEILING A SURPRISE, MY HEART BEATS FASTER THAN USUAL. THANK YOU PATRICK THE STARFISH. Your presents excites me ALL THE TIME. I ALWAYS LOVE YOUR PRESENTS TOO MUCH, AND THAT’S WHY YOU’RE MY BOY. X.

Feb 18th

v'day

V’day was homecooked aglio olio with mushroom and bacon, mushroom soup and untouched haagen daaz ice-cream. Each dish had 10 spoonful of love. And then falling asleep in the midst of a home movie after a big fat meal. I love you so much. Xx

Feb 14th

this.... is.... WAR.

I am indeed forgiving but this time, we’ll see.

Jan 31st

#justwondering

Does anyone of you just want to break down and cry over nothing at all sometimes? Or when sometimes, the slightest things just makes you want to let out a good cry. Sometimes. Just sometimes. What does that mean? Hmm.

Jan 21st

Kazbaby

Happy Birthday to my bestfriend forever. You’ll do good struggling with school, work & money. Have faith, keep working, and be strong! Xx.

Jan 12th

JANSEN

Thank you babe for everything. You have been fabulous, and I cannot be any more thankful to have met you. X

Dec 29th

One Day

“Whatever happens tomorrow, we had today. I’ll always remember it.”

Dec 6th

And you'll find beauty in these imperfections

8th 04/12; You have been unbelievably amazing. Cleared all my modules this semester & am pretty pleased with results! Can’t stop smiling like a Cheshire Cat. December will be the perfect month I’m sure.

Dec 5th

:( :( :'( :( :(

Don’t know if its a good idea to tell myself that everything will be okay. I’d rather be telling myself that it will not be okay & suffer lesser disappointment. Carry that heavy heart till 5 days later. What babe says is true though. I can’t change anything so what’s the worry for? “Ok. I can’t change anything so stfu already.”

Nov 25th

Do you fear where you are?

So many things to look forward to! Xmas. Sis’s wedding. Taiwan Trip with the boy. Not so looking forward to the release of results on the 2nd next month. Pretty choked by it I’m having hallucination about being all happy because I finally do perfectly well to be extremely pleased with myself with zero disappointment. Read. Zero. Means not a single tinge. Of disappointment. Not...

Nov 21st

Maybe(s)

Maybe I’m the cause of all misery. Maybe I’m extremely stubborn and strong headed. Maybe I’m selfish. Maybe I need some soul-searching.Maybe I’m not as nice. Maybe I’m really that bad. Maybe I am not good for anyone at all. Maybe I am never good for anyone. Maybe I’m just good and making people unhappy with me. Maybe someone needs to tell me all my flaws. Maybe...

Nov 9th

Slip

Sick of making the wrong choices. Am I not giving.

Nov 9th

Maybe I should franchise Ladurée over to Sg. Ha.ha.ha

Oct 22nd

Hey baby, When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. And when the going gets tough, YOU HAVE ME! (: On the side note, I’m so glad I found you babe. KISS.

Oct 19th

If only studying don’t always have to go together with exams. & I’m hating the fact I’m filled with so much angst about so many things but am suppressing it so damn much because I’m thinking it could all be because of #1 Worried about exams and #2 PMS. Sigh Why Why?

Oct 18th

Limbaby

Oct 12th

You still amaze me on a level that’s indescribable.

Oct 12th

Oct 11th

We're all broken

Sigh my fucking heart out

Oct 7th

1 note

and You always will

I’m studying boring law and am on the verge of being done studying for the day. I’m not exactly tired but my mind is preoccupied. The feeling creeps in every now and then. I’ve tried not to think so much but it keeps coming back. It’s been a hectic week filled with bad emotions. But I got to keep my head up high, get a grip of myself and stop feeling so emotional. Because...

Oct 5th

Miss You

I’m sure you’re in a better place now overlooking everyone you love. My heart is so heavy. Xx.

Oct 4th

When all that's left are ashes & memories

I am dreading the arrival of Tuesday… ):

Oct 2nd

Happy Birthday Uncle Gan!

Smartie pants Uncle Gan got everybody down for his birthday today! That was probably his birthday wish this year. :’)

Oct 1st

In loving memory.

We met. Exchanged minimal words. But I always tell Jan that if you didn’t have difficulties holding conversations, you’d be a funny man. I tell him about how I wish that I would be able to converse with you in a proper manner. I think you’re a funny man. Jan says you’re happy-go-lucky. And everytime I see you I get this certain pinch in my heart. It’s not sympathy.....

Sep 30th

J

Want you to be in my arms so I can give you the warmth you need.

Sep 29th

Want to be selfish and just dump my emotions on someone else. I can only think of my tuition kids to do so :O

Sep 29th

For my babyboy.

Hi babe! I’m extremely blessed to have you as my other half. And after 5 months, I’m still pretty damn amazed that we have gotten each other (: Its funny how things happen between us and each and every time we talk about it, it never fails to give me this tingling feel; positive emotion. Thank you baby for everything. Your meticulous care & concern towards me. Despite some of...

Sep 28th

I need a doctor.

When I’m all alone in an “enclosed” area, usually the toilet, I start thinking a little too much. I think I try too hard to please everyone around me it is clouded all around above and inside my head I start losing my mind and end up wrecking things up instead of making things to near perfection. There is a serious problem with me.

Sep 26th

Sep 21st

Such is.. Life.

And so I was looking at some stuffs which made me miss those times. Complexity of life. Stings.

Sep 15th

Harder than you know. Faster than you think.

Sep 12th

Sinking.

Sep 12th

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either. And the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry. He is not thinking about you every moment. But he will give you a part of him that he knows you...

Sep 8th

At the end of the day, it just feels like

I didn’t have to do anything at all. No one can help me. Not even anyone closest to me. Literally No one but Myself. All I’m left with are all things negative.

Sep 6th

1 note

Sep 4th

When life gets a little harder,

I seek solace in you. And all of you. There’s nothing more I can ask for, except to feel a little lighter & brighter. Love you baby boy. Things will start looking up so don’t you worry. And I love all of you.

Aug 31st

If there’s still composition during exams, and if it is for me to write “A series of unfortunate events”, then yes, there’s so much for me to blabber about now. A CHAIN series of unfortunate events. Story of my current life.

Aug 31st

I need a break from all these negativity.

Aug 26th

Aug 25th

I can’t sleep…. My eyes are heavy but I can’t sleep & this happens only at night. I wonder why? Thinking of my beloved’s birthday plan. Dayum I hate myself.

Aug 23rd

Extremely Exhausted……..

Aug 21st

-

Dear August, You’re full of problems. Causing too much emotional upheaval. You showered me with angst, sadness & tears but I don’t really need that you know? Finish up your business as soon as you can. You’re left with 11 days. And don’t forget to bring along that boulder you left in my heart. Sincerely, Me.

Aug 20th

Reasons & Love can’t cold exist.

Aug 19th

Meh heh heh

*forces open my eye* “OPEN YOUR EYES! HUBBY WANTS TO SEE YOUR SLITERIES SLITS!!!” Bahahahahahahahahaahhahahahaha can’t deal with my cute boyfriend bloopbloopbloop

Aug 15th

Life isn’t dull. It isn’t boring. Not mundane. Still full of surprises. And love. And life throws us full of downs/shits. These shits are not thrown directly at me. Its not me. My life is good, with the best combination of people around me.. But with all the “downs” circulating around me, I feel hurt indirectly. I feel hurt not because someone hurt me. Because I feel....

Aug 14th

Aug 9th